Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Powerful Beingness and Shores

First impressions, are a registered memory
A memory that quickly fades once the personality begins to overlapse the physical materiality

When I see you now, I see what you portray, the way you feel and what makes you 'sane'
The things that most stand out, perhaps a beautiful trait, or an overwhelming flaw
I know, like all know, we all have days

Yet the more I see you, the less I say
Because those words become unnecessary
and the timing becomes more powerful

The times I want to be, and those where I don't mind sitting at the shore

You don't need to accompany me to the sea, to see what I talk about
Just look inside your heart someday, you'll hear your personal words fly out

And then you can come sit by me, so we can have a conversation about Life and its whereabouts.

Sea Weed

They don't exist
And when they do, the cards are blown

Will I ask if your hurt
No, because your a tyrant
Tyrants don't get hurt
They just bump their head on a tree, consequently
They hurt themselves, and pride on what they eat
They're not human, they're an animalistic breed

They feed themselves on insecurity, the one that they mantain
by keeping you waiting
The insecurity which is a lie, as it is only an illusion of the mind
when the mind is unable to comprehend, why what's dead doesn't wish to be alive

Sunday, March 28, 2010

My First earned, owned Bank Account

An inspirational thought which got to me today, was if we all strive for money
Why don't we appreciate the vast wealth we accumulate with compliments and the feeling of receiving love.
On my 22nd birthday, I feel blessed to achieve so many wonderful wishes, and I truly think that every message and call was a gift, a blessing in disguise, and a lovely sensation which is just adding to my 'bank account'.

It feels really nice to celebrate it in style, in the way that I like, and with my wants fulfilled. My newness, my oldness leaving my side, and recognizing this new girl, this new Sanam, and what I like and dislike. It's actually like a complete make-over, where I'm starting to discover what the new me, likes, enjoys, dislikes and most of all my taste, style and what makes me comfortable.

It's like starting fresh, a new slate, a new mind, positive patterns and beliefs, reflective attitude, and most of all change, change and change. I dig this time, for the first time I'm starting to be what I have always wanted to be.

It's a beautiful transformation period in my life, where after a jolt of lessons, they're finally sinking in, and they've created with seeds, a wonderful flower that I see blooming with each day that passes.

It's 2010, and I couldn't be happier to be alive.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Supporting Walls

The things you most want, are they really the ones you strive for
Those that are rooted deep down in the subconscious
Those that perhaps provide purpose

Do you resist, and fall for temptation
Or find it a way to get rid of procreation
Procreation of all sorts, like beauty in life
The sort you paint, like  a sun in the bright sky

The ones you attract in your life, making it easy to have a simple life
All just appears, while your wondering if it's whack

Do you try to fight what's meant to be, and find another way
Do you try hard enough to stray, lay n pay
Does materialism take over, and your inner side remain
Silent as the peaceful sea, with a sun yet to rise 'day'

Do you ever wonder when your fight will stop
When the ego will surrender, or when the resistance will drop
Will it be the result of Universal situations and their consequence
or will the heart have a simple outburst

Will you come to terms with your wants and escapes
Will the escape be a dream, or is it a nurturing nightmare
When black n white cease to exist, their meaning buried in a grave

Will you unite to be one, as is meant on this beautiful fine day....

Let me battle your good n bad

What if I test you,
to see how far you'll go

What if I act in defeat, or in victory
Will you remain the same way

If I stay with my knowingness
Will you surpass trying to make me surrender

Will you test me too, even when you can tell
that I have no rules in human behavior

Will you believe my pitying, or will you answer to my anger
Will you accept that I rebel against my wants
Or consider it a weird thinker

When you know that I am
I will know that you are

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Sexy vs Virginal

Is it the Black angel, or the White one
They look the same, just have a different hairstyle and outfit

The wings on the Black one are sharper, the White one's are softer
lllusions, Images, Actions

What happens when both of these unite?

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Discover my Rehabilitation state of beingness

Nightmare state, darkness above, clouded directions and sincere lust
Ways I learnt, to deal with your active actions
Your egoistic head, and that body with which you run

Dark times, cloudy rains, thunderous states in a limited time frame
Ways to keep you going, moments that led you on, memories which made you stay
Cold word and eyes, pain fuelling that which you onto me made
Broken tears, held back non fear, and strength no reason could retain
Or was it my fantasy, that wicked thing which fulfills my known prophecy

The fall was meant to be, as much as the final turn, wearing black
Wondering where to run
Was it the 6 a.m train, the shadowed people, or the loneliness that caught up by
Your role in bed, whilst I had to find a way back

No home felt like home, the self lost all sense of I
No cries for help returned a call, Neither by months, neither by karma law

The olden days, when the globe turned black, the body blue,
our resultant state, and the torness that begun, or continued to loom