Hidden

I hide like a child.. in a cocoon.. protected by inner strength
My territory keeps me warm, calm and striving,
complications arise when I try to make sense
of what lies inside, and why it's so deep within

It has its positivity, favourable to those around me
giving to those I love to see smile
Using my power to take favourable steps
in the direction of an improved humanity
Every person is a mere foot step
but each step matters in history

You question me and my position in life
Why I am the way that I am
But I just am, like you, like all , like humanity
Created from love, striving towards destiny and self please

If i knew the answer to your question, I would have ammended
my own self stomach sobriety
Or perhaps it's my personal uniqueness
that element each person has
Yet it appears I have a flaw, like a normal human being
It's obvious to you because I'm still
Yet what it makes it different from the flaws you hold within
the ones not present in your daily personal interactions

Dress and Shoes

Tried him on for a lil while
Like a random dress, experimenting
my inner child
Strong enough to peel the band aid
and try something new
Questions and questions
wanting to know what's on his mind

It wasn't personal, he was like a child
Felt like a mother, forcing on a soft side
It doesn't breakthrough, the provocations
only serve to salt the left foot wounds
The ones you don't see, don't know
and will never hear of

Forget his ego, it's all he's learnt
Waiting to be carried, gaining emotional and 'I'm right' comfort
Forgetting he needs to nurture
instead of running out to play

If only I'd stop playing around
With somebody too young for me
Grow up, and stop allowing one to be a lady boy
But be a lady and stand by his side
perhaps a judgement but its cool
what I say I know comes back to me
I take that responsibliity

It's like wearing stilletos, what envious shoes
Internally bleeding, tattered, losing inspiration, bound to motherhood

As if the game of life weren't enough
for me to cradle the games you and I love
for game... in hope
of gain..

p.s... I still believe

Parallel Realities

It seems like for one situation, an exact opposite situation arises
X runs to Y,              Z runs with A
Emotional attachment leads one to be 'good' for the bad
Whilst detachment allows one to be 'bad' for the good

When your plate gets filled with that which isn't even yours
People playing games to feel stronger than the 'opponent'
Yet it only enhances personal ego, further encouraging hidden cowardice
Strength can be found in several aspects, it's the way you choose to act
at any point in time, whether by retaliating, letting it go or simply choosing to be quiet.
The game lies within each individual, a personal game, maybe a flaw
A lesson to be learnt, an obstacle to be overcome
a mere growth process

The resistance to let it go, further creates so many circumstances which force you
to relase it, yet wanting the opposite of the game, is the Biggest Challenge
that only lies within the self, perhaps the mover and shakers of personal emotions
which creates very circular rollercoaster circumstances paralleling that which
is revolutionising within!

22

When I question too much, it loses its cause
A purpose allows me to stand tall
The dreams are necessary yet likeable to be
the right place, right time, destiny and my creative mentality
The more I think, the larger becomes the approach
the awareness of creating things on a positive note
It starts to fulfill when I am self fulfilled
Noticing the only treasures I have in life
are those that mirror what's already within me
The unrequired walks always, leaves me
making me free
Time is all that is, the rest is all the beginning

Losing Battles

Losing Battles are the epitome of human structures which exist to improve those very things that are 'ideal' to most or a cause which without fighters becomes extinct.

The occults

  I always thought that the world of occults was a fantasy, an image to good to be true
a science rooted in creative worlds like Harry Potter and an old age religion deriving
from witches and those who worshipped Earth.

  Witches have always fascinated me, perhaps something about their unique powerful ability to attract what they want simply because they have faith in their beliefs. Their extensive use of potions and herbs to create that which they desire in their lives and the powerful love they have for nature's own beauty, the sun, the moon, the stars etc.. Well I've been reading up on it, and met those who have reached that stage in their life where they get what they want simply because they know they can and will call for it.

  It's 2009, and the occults are more powerful than ever, not only can one find members
working in this 'religion' all over the world, yet the practice itself is so powerful
and this attractive all-embracing energy can be felt in the presence of 'light workers', in certain centers of worship, somebody's house or even a particular person. One simply has to be aware. Of course those who have been aware of energies for years may even tap into your personal energy and the oneness source which provides light.

  The journey is pretty incredible, one discovers the use of tarot cards, divination, translation of energy aurus which are around each person and indicate what they are going through in life or what they're recent thoughts reflect. The third eye and its power is used in the name of intuition. Like any set of beliefs, it has to be experienced to be understood. By far the most interesting 'religion' that has come to me in life, and the one I've enjoyed the most from the various I have studied and the various I have experienced in the countries I've resided in or the centers of worship which I've visited over the years.

Based on Law of Attraction, one is able to pick out tarot cards and meditate and understand the position one is in, in this route of personal life. It's not exactly a fortune telling device, but rather a key to understanding where your self is situated, on which door and which circumstance. The use of energy to heal one another is fantastic, and simply done with the power of the mind and body. Of course a field which is so vast, there are various types of arts in this field of impressive occults, and one must experience it to notice the results, which in any case have changed my life perhaps thanks to the wheel of life which has the power to turn your world in a minute!

Cover Ups

The most beautiful masks can be found in Venice
Accessorized, decorated, one to suit the perfect ball
Yet one may find masks on every human being
Be it the mask of strength, the mask of power, pain and manipulation
Underneath each mask is a heart protecting itself, putting up a barrier and self portraying
what the being wishes for all to see

United in a cosmic world dance, separated by personal concerns
Concerns each individual has to a different degree, formed by distinct experiences
Let the self emerge.. for that is by far the most beautiful I you can decorate yourself with