If I sat down, to really search my brain, and write down the numerous, what seem like endless
times I have tried to figure out the two roles human beings play
I would have received an award, for years of contemplation on human roles in society
I think my mentors kept it a secret from me, so that I would discover it myself
and I believe the universe only presented me with life lessons which would bring me
that recognition and awareness, of the challenge that has been focal in my life, in my
personal relationships.
Essays, endless ones on Ram and Sita, the British colonials and Hindu citizens, white lords and black slaves, political forces and society. The discussions, debates, arguments, thoughts, such a will to understand this balancing act!! And today I see it, after years of wonderment and nearly three years of a search, that there are two people involved in a relationship, the giver and the taker.
Of course I knew, and saw that one was more loving than the other, yet I never realized that it consisted of power roles, and a force which concludes your role in the specific relationship, or in general in your relationships.
I never appreciated the strength of a giver, their love, their belief, kindness and most of all their choice to play that role. Today I do appreciate them, for I finally see what I have always been.
A giver can go through the worst no doubt, it might even force you to want to be a taker, more out of a certain emptiness than a will to fight. Yet soon enough one realizes, that being yourself is by far grander than any situation which involves you playing a role.
As for a taker, I've met so many, knew they were insecure, and hid it with their ego's but till Now, I've just come to see how far a human mind can go to feel better about itself emotionally, instead of finding an outlet of self love.
People who will think they have power over you, on some level like an oedipus complex, with God being their alter ego, which they personify. Some who will go to all levels to break you, and others who will walk away with everything, and give you nothing in return as it gets to their head, and they feel right. Right about what? Not something, just themselves, since its a feeling they rarely get to cherish, hence such a moment is a chance to relish the unworthiness which lies within
Of course, not all takers are bad, and not all givers are good. At times each only plays a role which balances the opposite force. Hence a tyrant opposing a victim.
Personal relationships, to discover yourself amongst the action, is to bloom regardless of anyone's wants but yours, and your destiny fate.
