Hidden

I hide like a child.. in a cocoon.. protected by inner strength
My territory keeps me warm, calm and striving,
complications arise when I try to make sense
of what lies inside, and why it's so deep within

It has its positivity, favourable to those around me
giving to those I love to see smile
Using my power to take favourable steps
in the direction of an improved humanity
Every person is a mere foot step
but each step matters in history

You question me and my position in life
Why I am the way that I am
But I just am, like you, like all , like humanity
Created from love, striving towards destiny and self please

If i knew the answer to your question, I would have ammended
my own self stomach sobriety
Or perhaps it's my personal uniqueness
that element each person has
Yet it appears I have a flaw, like a normal human being
It's obvious to you because I'm still
Yet what it makes it different from the flaws you hold within
the ones not present in your daily personal interactions

Dress and Shoes

Tried him on for a lil while
Like a random dress, experimenting
my inner child
Strong enough to peel the band aid
and try something new
Questions and questions
wanting to know what's on his mind

It wasn't personal, he was like a child
Felt like a mother, forcing on a soft side
It doesn't breakthrough, the provocations
only serve to salt the left foot wounds
The ones you don't see, don't know
and will never hear of

Forget his ego, it's all he's learnt
Waiting to be carried, gaining emotional and 'I'm right' comfort
Forgetting he needs to nurture
instead of running out to play

If only I'd stop playing around
With somebody too young for me
Grow up, and stop allowing one to be a lady boy
But be a lady and stand by his side
perhaps a judgement but its cool
what I say I know comes back to me
I take that responsibliity

It's like wearing stilletos, what envious shoes
Internally bleeding, tattered, losing inspiration, bound to motherhood

As if the game of life weren't enough
for me to cradle the games you and I love
for game... in hope
of gain..

p.s... I still believe

Parallel Realities

It seems like for one situation, an exact opposite situation arises
X runs to Y,              Z runs with A
Emotional attachment leads one to be 'good' for the bad
Whilst detachment allows one to be 'bad' for the good

When your plate gets filled with that which isn't even yours
People playing games to feel stronger than the 'opponent'
Yet it only enhances personal ego, further encouraging hidden cowardice
Strength can be found in several aspects, it's the way you choose to act
at any point in time, whether by retaliating, letting it go or simply choosing to be quiet.
The game lies within each individual, a personal game, maybe a flaw
A lesson to be learnt, an obstacle to be overcome
a mere growth process

The resistance to let it go, further creates so many circumstances which force you
to relase it, yet wanting the opposite of the game, is the Biggest Challenge
that only lies within the self, perhaps the mover and shakers of personal emotions
which creates very circular rollercoaster circumstances paralleling that which
is revolutionising within!

22

When I question too much, it loses its cause
A purpose allows me to stand tall
The dreams are necessary yet likeable to be
the right place, right time, destiny and my creative mentality
The more I think, the larger becomes the approach
the awareness of creating things on a positive note
It starts to fulfill when I am self fulfilled
Noticing the only treasures I have in life
are those that mirror what's already within me
The unrequired walks always, leaves me
making me free
Time is all that is, the rest is all the beginning

Losing Battles

Losing Battles are the epitome of human structures which exist to improve those very things that are 'ideal' to most or a cause which without fighters becomes extinct.