Inception

Inception, was brilliant! I mean crowds were applauding after the film..

Could there be any more merger between reality and 'inner reality'
For a while I considered it to be exclusively interesting based on its
foundation of focusing so long on how our subconscious mind
deep roots our patterns, or secrets and how our conscious mind
is the aware one, and the differences amongst them.

Then I realized, wait a minute, it's not about the differences,
but the acceptance of both of them actually being one that leads one
to a more fulfilled life.

'Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.' Carl Jung


Which goes to say, that if we accepted ourselves just the way we were, flaws and all. And had no 'secrets,' which really aren't secrets, but on a deeper level they are  simply patterns!
Which we probably come on earth as souls to release, with certain lessons, because guess what if we didn't have patterns. I don't know about you, but I would be chilling with Buddha somewhere, and not be in this game of life. It's simple as, simple does. We're born to release patterns, and love seems to be the only way of doing this. Through nurturing self, accepting self, and once the ground work is laid out, the rest is automatic. It just happens, as much as as an individual one gets the same sort of lessons in life, for a particular element of challenge in self.

On another level, if Cobb hadn't hidden Mal so deep in his subconscious, and Mal hadn't hidden her belief either, there would be no film, because there would be no 'secret' and hence nothing to find and bring out into the open. If they each had accepted that that is their shadow side, they would have been fine. Yet that is life, and sometimes it can take lifetimes perhaps to clear a pattern out the way.
And Mr. Fisher, wouldn't have taken so long to discover what really lay in the safe, if only he truly confronted what he was denying within himself. So you see the movie might have included several characters, but at the end of the day, it helped each character confront something about themselves, and strengthen their weaknesses, or empower their strengths or for a couple of people it was just an ordinary experience. It worked in everyones highest interest.

The basic moral being, instead of allowing life to show you what's buried in you, discover it yourself, and you will live a more centered, fulfilled life. Not that this is a piece of cake, but I think consistency helps, as much as showering every day, ensures your hygiene.

D says, 'evil is merely ignorance.'  Which I agree with, because once we are aware of something that lays within us, we accept it, and something changes.

Once again change, one of my favorite topics, because so much of it is connected to Change. If we surrendered and didn't mind change, we would be so much more flexible to allowing life to present what is actually within us, and we would confront ourselves and move on. But most of us are so comfortable, that change feels like a misconduct of some sorts.

I loved Inception, as much as I love knowing my patterns so I can love them, as much as I'm beginning to love change for the first time, and not the type that involves a city, or clothes, but rather the one that changes something within. At times it means letting go of old relationships, or old ways of thinking, even old ways of living, but it adds up to something new, which allows me to grow  and reach planes I never knew existed and ones I couldn't imagine could arise in my life.

E R

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.

Eleanor Roosevelt, 'This Is My Story,' 1937

The joint family

With one of the most interesting classes in the most unexpected day
I figured out how to humanize my 16 Tarot court cards, to make them into individual human beings

A challenge placed in front of me for nearly 18 months now,
has turned into an understanding, with what D, as people call her, explained to me.

There are four suits in the Tarot deck, beautiful and individual.

Wands
Cups
Swords
Pentacles

They each have their own element property as well which helps understand them further, and sometimes even combining them with the zodiac sign can help.

Wands- Fire
Cups- Water
Swords- Air
Pentacles - Earth


Well as I know of it now, I can say, that each suit, for example Wands, has its own nuclear family. It includes, a King, a Queen, a Knight and a Page. Four members, each playing a different role in their respective household. Thus a King representing, the member who holds the solidarity, the responsibility and most of all the decision making. So on reveals each ones characteristics.

All together, all 16 members become so interesting. Identifiable, and one is able to know which family one would go to for a certain query. For example, with a query about art, one would definitely go to the family of Cups.

You know, life really answers your questions in the most unexpected of ways! I mean through songs, a conversation you overhear, or someone telling you something, or reinforcing a statement. But today, is even more special, for I discovered, the joint family I was always looking for in my deck of cards, which will always be with me. And further more, they've been right under my nose, and yet it will be two years soon since I started my wonderful journey of change with them.


Tarot cards, aren't only for divination purposes, or answer seeking purposes. They represent energy, the law of attraction, and most of all they can be mirrors to characteristics you most need, or need less of. To take it one step forward, some of the Major Arcana cards, are fascinating! Like number 16, the Tower card, one can really relate to this card, with a personal experience of a crisis which takes place in life. They are the most symbolic messages, through their image, through their message and most of all through the personal connection one forms with them.


I love them!

Social Acceptance

Being socially accepted is perhaps a challenge for those who resist that want
Personality, soul, or mere deep hidden patterns, an unknown territory appearing
in the conscious from a tight wrapped sub conscience

And when we reject such a field, is it because we've grown
or merely because it might take time to create a new you


Was it the wrong people, the growth of unknown patterns or merely life obstacles
which differ in humanity's toll

'The death toll is always the same, one per person.'

And yet it seems like death happens every time a new experience is abound
A renewal of thoughts, a renewal in perspective, and most of all a renewal in what is a personal belief on love. So the old is new again.

This thing called acceptance, it can be bought, it can be sold, it can be attained through a popular medium, and at times earned through dedicated work.

Yet if we stopped believing in ourselves, when people fail to realize us, we would only give up what we came on earth to achieve, alongside humanity, or without them.

'There's a lot of people alone in the world, they don't have to be lonely.'

I think when one is able to master this, then one is a true ship controller, for then one sees beyond the black and white, and one sees one self and one's purpose for what it is.

The Wheel of Fortune

Power isn't something you give away
It's something you nurture

Power, far from being the anthesis of love
Is only created through love

Power isn't what you do to someone
It is what remains of you, once you have flown your course.

A door

A door was shut and buried underneath
Not just any door, but the kind that has these big dreams

When the door failed to open at sight
Windows were created to protect what already had its own might

Then some arrows shifted in, those of fortune
and those that the windows used to convince the door to open

Yet the door had its wisdom, and knew about the right time
It hadn't ever come out, yet it had anchored all from above

And then one day, after years of contemplation, and a belief in something
which hadn't been touched

lodged open, especially after months of guiding light

And then unravelled the journey which was going on,
it seems the door had been blooming
Only this time, the journey would end with a hand of roses
They would be red


And whilst this would be beautiful
It will be the long lasting experiences which truly  matter
Because they brought a door here...

It's not so easy, as be gone....

When you leave something behind
Does it hurt, or are we just trying to change ourselves

When we feel bounded by those around us
Do we reject them, because we wish to fly

And when something that's gone still has the power to hurt
Will it ever be gone, or will it simply transform into something new


Letting go, is something sour, n bitter, because to leave
is the epitome of wanting to change, without any resistance

Perhaps it is a mistake, or perhaps there is some buried regret


When we want a bigger picture, do we release the small obstacles
without a word, or any delay
Is it something I truly wanted to do for months, or something that shifted overnight

Perhaps I'll never know
But I do know, that it has become silent
There remains no loud noise, no fear, and most of all no need for any acceptance
but that of self

So maybe we will always make mistakes
But one of the few things we can do for ourselves
is deny entrance to that which  makes one regret.

Children vs Men

2 scents unite to feel like they are one, assimilated, even before self has unravelled
They might be life less to some, yet this grouping allows them to connect
on the basis of a common 'denominator.'
An illusionary prey, which chooses children over men,
a person who knows that they know, righteousness only allows, for another obstacle to be passed
and a positive flaw, to be maintained.

When people refuse to change, they resist what comes to them
We all do, sometimes it takes years, lifetimes to break a pattern!
Yet ignoring change is quite another, and denying it, further.

Imagine a tree, it changes according to the seasons,
color- wise, quality, quantity wise.
Law of nature applies.
So why would humans be separate from this way,
when everything is connected, we are all spirit.

So instead of games, manipulation, and methods which only
serve to give 'power' to those who feel 'powerless'
I'm definite, that if they looked inside, and truly
searched for what made them who they are
They wouldn't need a false material illusion.
Today it's people power games, tomorrow its brands, what's next, addiction to something which isn't even really real. It only serves to fulfill some emotional insecurity which if confronted,
you wouldn't need to question if people have mirrors, or try to make them lose by considering oneself grander.
You would see what you really hold.


Marilyn Monroe,
"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." 

one field, one love, one creation.

One, One , One , One, One... this number just can't be emphasized enough
And even if it is, the wonder of it, is that it manages to include every existential number
Of course, zero is special, for its inherent quality of being divided by one to provide infinity
Yet zero is appropriate for the idea of choice, one is appropriate, for all that is!

And when infinity and all that is unite, I think it's the beginning of a new calling
A meant to be factor, with wants the higher self has created over time
or perhaps before arrival, on a soul blueprint, which is but the guide
for all our life experiences, the simple, the trauma, and the happy.

It's the fitting in of the pieces, the idealization of Universe tandem
and the point of being at one with all, or simply, with a purpose
that isn't just in the mind, but on a much higher level, in sync
with self, chakras, and higher self
Something the subconscious and conscious correlate on.

And as for infinity, if we could do, or try everything, and incorporate all the sources
Well personally it would be fun! I would know every technique when it came to the
Study of Religions.
Yet, it simples down, or narrows down, and one starts sticking to things which just work
they just instantly connect, and it gets easier every single time
The pattern strengthens, or perhaps emerges more confident
with a self discovery, that lay dormant within!

It's the year of unity! I don't know if you see the difference
But if you look deep within, and start looking for the unknown within
I'm sure you'll unravel your largest aspirations
from an inner well, which is waiting to be drawn out
to thirst your inner quest

The terror of one of a kind

It's not such a lonely journey after all
When you have yourself, and your mind at rest

It's perfectly, when your not around,
telling me how to go down

It's commonly known to be true
that a star can shine in a comfortable place

Your expectations are not necessary
and your voice not needed

For you know as much as I, that it just makes you feel right
and gives you the same comfort, which is the reason you question the one that's mine

You don't need to be wrong, if another is right
You can simply be you, instead of trying to prove some sort of illusionary might

Kindness doesn't give you the right to prey
As much as being 'bad' won't make you win the day

Good people don't suffer, we all do
The only difference is, they fix it themselves, and some patronize the good,
with condescending advice

If you really cared, you would support, not advice
If you really tried, you would be the one to bring up, not further drain down eye sight

You wouldn't pass me on your pitying company
but rather respect me, than insult my mistaken plights

The ones you also make, yet pass on to your lovers
as though they were your knights



Your way would be different and it wouldn't involve mine
It would simply involve yours, whilst you show your true character in hindsight

It is not words which make a man, but his deeds
Consistent one, not those which only appear once a year
much like October 31st, and its consequent halloween.

Little girl

A guide, mentioned today, that the most challenging people in our lives
are our soul mates

It gave me a mixed reaction, for a while a sense of ah.. relief, and on the other hand
'what the hell, yeah right like xxxxxxxx is my soul mate! '

Then I got thinking, if a person who let's say, made me angry
was my soul mate, then through that particular energy,
I would only be learning a couple of crucial or normal lessons through being part of humanity.
Such as forgiveness, accepting my weaknesses, and perhaps using such ' anger or disruptive ' moments as a time to empower my personal strengths.

Her logic can be also be found in a story she mentioned, about a cute child who wants to play in the game of life.
She watches from above, and chooses to learn about forgiveness, considering humanity is constantly changing, with a whole array of experiences with one another. She tells God, that the person she will travel on this earthly plane with is her soul mate, the one who she has spent lots of life times with as journeying soul.
 And through this particular game of life, they choose to put each other through much, but come out with the purpose of forgiving one another's deeds whilst they individually grow or aspire towards enlightenment.

Well it might not be believable to a 'grown - up' or somebody who already has fixed patterns in place. Yet, it's sweet, and it gives you a new way, or approach of viewing things, kind of like a gentle security.

We ride on the same boat and ...

Depression, it's like the number one root of suicide..

Yet it fails to receive the treatment we deem on old people, ill people, even dying people.

In a society where even critics will criticize their own critics

there's no place for people with mental illnesses

or let me say, no place for support of such people

It's the same situation, we had with gay marriages, with aids, even with sex.

It's like people are so resistant to change, that they even block out

the day to day changes which occur in humanity's pace

Be it the inner emotions, the outer looks or the ability to hold onto what isn't what it was yesterday.

Why is it, that we change our phones, our shoes, even our boyfriends

But we find it hard to change ourselves, or accept those who have changed.

We stick to old resolutions, and old friends, which never change

and yet when one of us changes, we go on the defense, as though

that means they're constantly critical of our life station

We were so excited that the States had a black president, oh we're going forward!

But we all failed to caption, exactly what the political campaigns were doing

Focusing on Change, which as it turns out, is the only constant in life

It is actually the only thing that always remains consistent in our lifetimes

whether we like it or not, we soon learn to adapt to this flow. 

And it's not only this mental state, I mean even physically, we're so narrow minded

that we remember some people, as oh yeah the 'fat one.'

What a label, as though the person lost their name and identity

because their body weight stood out more than what you know them as

Or the 'slut,' like sex overrides the individual's personality

And these are terms, educated society members use, so imagine, ignorance .. ? Or perhaps an inability to make sense of oneself, above the worded terms?...

You know it isn't everyday we ride the same boat, but about the days that we do, that truly reflect what we feel about ourselves through each other. 

Do you notice how much I change?

You've said people are different, yet according to what and according to whom
Considering there's no structured consensus on the same

Different from one another, how so, it's not like oneself
defines the majority of human characteristics

It seems like an easy way out to an internal dilemma within
For if we accepted people the way they were, we would see
that it is not they who are different, or me, but instead, what they love to do
that makes them so 'different.' For example, somebody creating music, that makes them different,
not as a person, but rather the footprint they leave behind, with concerns to the energy
they picked up as an individual, resulting in their own original pieces.

I still believe we're all basically the same, in terms of our human experiences,
our strengths, our weaknesses, and our desire to be happy. Perhaps it is the details
which differ, or our approach, which could be connected to the soul, mind, body, experiences, patterns, and nurturing environment and people.

If I met you today, after say 3 years, and said you were different. It wouldn't make sense, for I'd be comparing you to me? And why the need for comparison, it only halves your self and mine.

Yet if I said, hey you've changed, as a normal individual, I probably would have realized your weight, your hair, your height maybe?!? Yet what about the real changes, the ones you probably would have subconsciously and consciously made, due to life experiences. I mean 3 years, they're a grand amount of learning experiences, and individual choices.

I like change, especially inner changes, they reflect on outer changes. I like growth, and I like seeing people grow around me as much I love to bloom regardless of the tosses and turns life presents, on this beautiful journey which is once upon a time, since it might be lived consequently by your soul many times, but only once by you, body, mind and spirit.

So when we meet again, and I say, you've changed. Let me know what you experienced, for it will brighten up my day.

I wanted Tarot, and now I'm set to be the apprentice

Life's many a journeys begin as a Fool
Card 0, in the Major Arcana in Tarot

As a fool, you set out on your journey,
ignorant and blissful of a knowledge which is yet to come your way

A way which will inspire many splendors, traumas, and at times disruptions
Yet not to worry, these are only life experiences, which work for the greater good

As will be the knowingness when one reaches Card 21, The World in the Major Arcana in Tarot

On this journey, aspects of self, represented as the shadow side are confronted, accepted, and hence one realizes one has the choice, as in every situation, to release the same

One experiences, joy , which enhance further growth

And one sees downfalls, which only exist to allow the phoenix to rise from the ashes

When one sees situations, for what they really do to us internally
mistakes become normal, growth becomes an amazing force, and negative situations help release those very things in our life which are not necessary, or right for one individually.

What is meant to be will be.....
At the right place, at the right time, in the right series of events

Just do it .. NOW

The Future is Now..

Well at least till the wind blows in another direction, creating a new Now

It gives you the chance to really explore your options, and come up with 20 ideas for one situation. It changes the whole deal, no more, do you feel so limited anymore, but you realize the infinite options your mind creates, and hence when you apply it to life, it liberally opens up, and the boxes you've made, start breaking apart, or completely disappearing, as though they were complete illusion.


The doing occurs in the mind, and the security is engined by fear. Chance events become normal, and personal stance increases. When you discover your 3 weaknesses, in life, you will also discover your strengths. You will then see how they completely balance each other to make sense. Much like the key opposite ingredients needed in any cooked dish.

Then experiences also start making sense, for they only occur to help you encourage your weaknesses to grow, and attribute some positivity onto them. Much like children who only need a lil bit of encouragement. The past becomes a necessary puzzle, the Future is Now, hence all that is  wanted, is understood in the now. It is then that we believe, it is then that we create, and it is then that we receive.

Sometimes though, I make it simpler, and leave it to my karmic actions, destiny and Universal synchronicity.

The test simply turns around

If your wrong, accept it
Stop making the same mistake over and over again like a tippler

Thinking your right, doesn't change it
Oh yeah and stop using people, they might release you from your insecurity
but for how long? Not even till day light..

Love yourself, and let others love themselves

Roses are red...

why me, why me?
First it broke, then it withered, and finally its dishonored.
It's not like I'm walking around hurting anyone
In fact those over there, intently play games on one another
Check those out, they even feel good about themselves
What about those girls, the ones who prove something to men
What about those guys, the ones that think they're always right

Why me Why me?

Well if the wind didn't shift, why would you be here
If you weren't meant to be budged, your resistance would always stick
Why not you? When everybody has their own share of deeds
And why compare, when your destiny completely personifies you
It doesn't matter what you do, but rather your intent, your want!

Everybody gets their own share at the right time, the Universe doesn't only
exist for you, but rather it exists in a grandness which allows it to synchronize and
co ordinate all the worlds events, to work in a tandem.

Learn to master your mind, not another.
Once you know what works for you, you will be at one with the situation
come what may, regardless of its good or bad.

And as for me, I'm only a guide, who will be with you along the way
till you realize the beauty of the role you play.
Patience, it all unravels, even what didn't make sense, makes sense at some point in your life
and what made sense once upon a time, will turn around to be the biggest nonsense.

There's something about life, now that it is mine. ...
Or until the Universe claims it to be
then I will have a purpose, and I will Bloom.

I'm talking Now.. the past is over, that's where it belongs

This kind of life chooses you...

And just when you think it can't get worse, it does

Then you learn to train your mind, and use 'mantras' which change the way you view the situation

And then you realize how to make your own life work, in the midst of the Universe, in co-orporation

Slowly you'll learn about your role, and what it is to let go